Exactly a year ago I was comparing myself daily to people I believed were greater than me, I was manipulated without it being intentional and I believed that I should just disappear. These feelings continued for months on end.
On 3/3/2014 I took the first available offer, and I moved one car full of belongings, a bed that I found on gumtree, a lot of books, records, clothes and a TV to my new “home”. I only had $200 to my name. I couldn’t seem to get myself out of trouble, but somehow I figured it out.
I was unhappy for an extremely long time, and sadness still comes in waves, but I can take control now.
I’m in such a healthy state, so many opportunities are arising and I’m working what seems like endlessly. I don’t feel very deserving of the love that I have but I feel so strong. I have someone who is so connected to me in every way that I feel most at peace waking beside them, my heart just bursting with love and comfort. I fought so hard to be where I am right now and I’m so proud that I’ve made it this far.
It’s crazy to think that I am still 20 years old and I’ve managed to make my way step by step into the industry, and to work with such encouraging and motivating people. I have my dream job, and career.
I have the greatest friends and family and love I could ever possibly have or deserve and I’m so incredibly lucky. I could never thank the people in my life enough. Thank you for keeping me afloat, thank you for keeping me alive.